It has been 10 months since my last blog post. So much has transpired since.
I gave birth to an adorable baby :). We moved cross-continents. It has been six months since we moved back to our hometown.
On Wednesday, February 12, I received heartbreaking news. Last night, I listened intently to a speech given by the most inspiring person I know.
Her sacrificial and unconditional love for her child touched me deeply. The way she lived out her belief that her children are an undeniable gift from God to her.
It made me reflect about my role as a mother. I recounted my reaction to my child’s medical diagnosis. And how I responded to the subsequent and ongoing struggles.
Did I truly believe my child, in all her “imperfections” in the eyes of the world, was 100% God’s gift to me?
If so, did I bear the medical challenges with grace?
I considered myself a circumstantial stay-at-home-mum (SAHM) in Atlanta from 2016 to 2019. I was determined to rejoin the workforce once I returned to my hometown.
My baby’s medical diagnosis changed everything.
My husband and I agreed that I should support my child at home, until such time she is able to thrive in spite of her medical diagnosis.
The last six months have been challenging physically, financially and psychologically.
On October 20, my baby’s godmother invited me to attend her faith community’s family group. She led the group reflection:
Is my family a treasure?
Do my actions convey my belief that my family is God’s gift to me?
Listening to yesterday night’s speech caused these questions to reemerge.
The many times I was disheartened by the unforeseen medical challenges.
The times when I lose my cool with my toddler for being dramatic or a contrarian.
Knowing full well the doubts I have been having of late, God presented this (via Scott Hahn’s Facebook page) as a reassurance being a SAHM is a purposeful way of serving Him.
I yearn to be life-giving like the Proverbs 31:25-30 woman:
“She is clothed with strength and
dignity, and laughs at the days to come.
She opens her mouth in wisdom;
kindly instruction is on her tongue.
She watches over the affairs of her household, and does not eat the bread of idleness.
Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband, too, praises her:
Many are the women of proven worth, but you have excelled them all.
Charm is deceptive and beauty fleeting; the woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.”